This surgery can not come at a better time. My health has been slowly declining since the beginning of December and this past week in particular has been difficult. I've been having non-GI symptoms which are unfortunately part of life with an auto-immune disease. At this point it isn't even the pain that gets me upset. I just feel tired. I'm tired of the mental exhaustion that comes along with being ill every day.
When the surgery didn't happen last week, I was so pissed off. I was afraid it would be another month before they could fit me in, but luckily I only had a week to wait. Everyone kept saying, "It's only one more week" but to me it felt like an eternity. For some reason even though I've been sick for so long, the thought of waiting another week just made me so damn angry.
Anyways, I thought I would have a lot more to say about surgery and I'd be inspired by the new year and all, but I really don't. I don't really have any fears or worries. I'm not freaking out. I'm just R E A D Y to get this damn thing over with.
I've got season 1 of Modern Family and How I Met Your Mother downloaded. I'm also downloading the movie The American. Hopefully these things keep me entertained. I'll probably be on a lot of pain meds so the more mindless the entertainment, the better. If anyone has any suggestions of things to watch I'd love to hear them.
Oh yea. I know for certain that my hospital has internet access so maybe I'll write a thing or two while I'm all high off dilaudid. Just a warning.