I'm torn because of doubt, though. Some people tell me I should at least attempt treatment with Cimzia because it would suck to have doubts later on if I didn't try everything. But I think doubt is natural and inevitable when doing something so drastic at 25 like removing my colon and rectum. I am sure ten years from now when some revolutionary treatment comes out, I will wonder if it would have worked for me and saved my insides. The question is, would I rather have doubt about what could have been treatment-wise, or what my life could have been if I had opted for surgery sooner. And right now I am honestly considering that the prospect of losing out on my twenties is a much heavier burden I might carry one day.
Just some random thoughts as I get closer to next week when I'll get a second opinion in Maryland.