The Human Fund: Money for People

After waiting impatiently for a week, the Humira approval will not be happening before the holiday.  I will not be receiving my first injections anytime soon.  It's very unfortunate.  I'm sure it doesn't help that this week is Christmas and people are in and out of offices.  

I'm really not feeling well.  Yesterday seemed to be an okay day.  I was optimistic, even.  But today was miserable.  I had a hard time being out attempting to run errands for Christmas.  It's frustrating just sitting around, waiting.  I feel like I'm wasting time, and for what?  This is all too familiar to me.  I hate this waiting game.  I'm always waiting for something; procedures to be done, test results, medications to start working... 

I try not eating, but I grow weak and I genuinely enjoy cooking to get my mind off things.  Not eating allows me the freedom to get a few hours out and about.  But then I don't have the energy to actually accomplish what I need to do.  I eat, and then when I'm in and out of the bathroom, curled over in pain, or nauseated, I curse food.  It's impossible to find the in between.  I'm damned if I do, damned if I don't.

For now, I'll enjoy the next few days with family and friends. 

P.S.  How great is the Festivus episode of Seinfeld?

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